:: Sunday, May 29, 2005 ::

i am occuring to myself as someone who is lost - the craziness of my past where i knew myself as someone who would sell her soul for love. it doesn't fit who i am any more AND some of the fringes are still there. now my soul can just be love. i am so far out on the skinny branches that i get afraid to move at times - taking the risks, opening, believing, being vulnerable - but this second i am fighting wanting to be right (see - there is only pain on the other side of all of this - trust & love & commit to something & just see what happens). gawd, what will i get out of this when when it all settles, when the "aaaaahaaaa" sets in, when my emotions slow down long enough for me to breathe again.

i kill off the journey when i want it to go my way. twarted intentions, unfulfilled expectations ...

i say i have freedom & passion & love in my life. i say i have it now. i say, i say , i say ... too fucking much ... i am quiet now. i will say something again soon ...
:: Kym 1:55 AM [+] ::
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